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Boldness: Grad School and the Unfamiliar Familiar

9/1/2011

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The Painted Desert
My ever growing and changing world has expended yet again. As I continue to look into what it means to be bold, I find that it's often wrought with moments of insecurity and uncertainty. But those moments are always followed by even bigger moments of growth, reminding me that the lessons I learned earlier about stepping out of my comfort zone, and remembering my plan, are paying off.

I started grad school this month.

And the first thing I did, was perform a skit...

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Grad outing to Watson Lake
If you know me at all, the last statement may have made coffee come out your nose. It's not that I don't enjoy performing. You will frequently find me at the front of a crowd, on stage, etc. when there is an event. I'm a shameless ham, and proud of it.

I am also from the east coast.

That means I drip with skepticism and sarcasm, and don't believe that “sharing my feelings with the group” will do anyone any good. I'm entrenched in hard scientific research practices, valuing numerical data, organized programming, evaluation, and facts. This hippy-dippy mumbo jumbo isn't my scene.

So imagine my reaction when the group leader rang an Asian hand bell to signify the beginning of the session, then told us all to take a deep breath and center ourselves.

As I deeply inhaled I thought “Oh THIS is where I am...”


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Stormy AZ sunset
Indeed, that was where I was. I am beginning a graduate program at Prescott College in AZ to get my Masters of Arts in Counseling Psychology, and Adventure Psychotherapy. After searching high and low, this was the only program I found that would lead me towards a “real” license, and also train me in wilderness-type therapy. As the orientation weekend began, I questioned if this was the right place for me. I doubted my decisions, and felt completely out of place. 

Then I started to hear some familiar things...

“We all have unique strengths to bring to the field of counseling.”
“Like any new skill, this is a practice – you are on a path to mastery, and along the way you'll experience self doubt. Don't lose heart, it means you are becoming more self-aware.”
“Don't forget to take care of yourself as you are learning to take care of others.”
“Look at your motivations for wanting to become a helper. How have your life experiences driven you here?”
“Stepping outside of your comfort zone is scary, but it will help you grow...”


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Watson Lake, AZ
...and countless other little things that I've pondered and learned on my way to this new career. As I got to know my new colleagues, I realized that exactly six months ago I didn't even know there was such a thing as “Adventure Based Psychotherapy.” I just knew that I wanted to work with people in the outdoors, using climbing as a medium for healing. Then I found that it already had a name. I wasn't the first one to come up with this idea, but still, without help, I generated it from deep inside myself. I found others who had the same story – Ecotherapy: Using farming and the environment to help others, came from the heart of a girl named Sarah, before she knew it had a name. Together we marveled that our internal compasses had led us here.

And then two goats on leashes walked across campus...

The Lessons:

1. Be aware. 
The more aware you are of yourself, your thoughts, beliefs, and feelings, the clearer your path will be. Moments of confusion and frustration usually come from being out of touch with who you really are.

2. Weird places help you grow.
My comfort zone used to be a safe 9-5 job with health insurance and a 401k. Now it's gown to include living in my car, staying with strangers, and creating new ways to earn myself an income. Prescott may still feel weird, but it's helping me expand my world even more.

3. Take the time to look back.
 I often focus on how far I still have yet to go: 3 years of grad school, countless papers and hours of supervision... if I look at that for too long I'd be overwhelmed. It's a pretty awesome thing to take a look back and realize that in 2010 I had no plans to move or change jobs, that I was unhappy and didn't know how to fix it. I've come so very very far.

4. Trust the process.
 This seems to be the school motto for Prescott College, but it can be applied elsewhere. If you are just beginning your journey of Boldness, trust that what you've started will continue to grow. Trust that the choices you are making will lead to a life of adventure and meaning. And trust that you will be able to look back soon, and see how high you've climbed.


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flyingjenny link
9/1/2011 06:16:36 am

It seems like you've found the perfect thing for you. It combines all your strengths and things that you love to do. I'm sure you will excel in this field.

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tim846 link
9/1/2011 06:30:57 am

Thank you for continuing to share your experiences with all of us and for being an inspirational friend!

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Jess link
9/1/2011 08:30:55 am

I loved what you wrote about trusting our internal compasses. Sometimes we look to outside stimuli to guide us when it is really ourselves all along that knows best what we like, what we excel at, what drives us. It's scary, yes, stepping out of the comfort zone. This past year my husband and I have parted ways with The Navy, a decision that left us looking for more affordable health insurance, with smaller paychecks, with doubt, stress, and insecurities. But with such, we have been given the opportunity to move to Boulder County, to explore that which makes us feel alive, to live as we have always imagined. I wish you the best with your grad school program and admire you for taking a leap. If you story, your journey, is able to help just one person who in turn helps another, I think it's more than worth it!

-jess

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Julie link
9/15/2011 12:19:43 pm

I like the reflections you post. Always seem to resonate with me at a meta level. This grad program sounds like it'll be a great experience. Thanks to you I've now heard of adventure psychotherapy. Best of luck!

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